Dear Fear- Fuck you. Sorry for my bluntness but I have to meet you with the same intensity that you meet me. See I'm onto your game now. For too long you made me think my survival was dependent on you. That as long as I fear, I'll be safe... that you'll INSURE my safety. Fear about money, and you'll make sure I have it. Fear about being alone and not meeting someone, and you'll make the opposite true. Fear about job security, my children's health, happiness, failure, disappointment, terrorism and a million other things and you'll make everything okay. Once again, fuck you. I see through the illusion of what you are doing. The reality is you constrict me to someone you then control. I lose myself. I turn on my morality. I turn on my faith. I become my smallest self. Nothing great in my life has happened because I followed you. My greatest moments are when I have faced you and moved forward. See here is what I have learned: your only job is to tell me what I deeply want. I fear being hurt or ill because I want to be alive and healthy. I fear being sad and alone because I want to be happy and share it with another. I want you to know fear that when I see you for what you truly are, you are a gift to me. You point me in a direction. It's here that I can learn to love you. The problem is that unless I use my anger, you come at me too strongly. Instead of pointing me towards my wants and dreams, you make me hide out and turn on others and myself. You are too fierce to face so I take lesser paths because I'm scared. So I have learned and continue to learn how to face you. I rely on people. I use countering strong emotions like courage and faith. I make sure to take good care of myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I also see the warning signs that when I start to feel tiny and tight or when I am strongly turning on others you are not only there but usually in control. Today, I invite you to become my teacher and not my leader. Today, I ask you to stand down and allow me to grow to depths you can't imagine. Today, I ask you to start following me.